OMG... so sad

So, in my neverending quest to read ever IF blog out there, I can across one of what seems like a very nice couple who went through IVF and eventually got pregnant with twins. She was only about 2 weeks behind me, and at 23 weeks, 3 days, lost both babies... she had to deliver them and they both died.

I can not imagine how sad she must be, and how hopeless they must feel. They were having furniture delivered this weekend and had painted the babies' room and everything. I am so sad for her.

I can not imagine now.. at 25 weeks, 4 days, not feeling these babies moving. I just can not imagine coming this far and losing them.

Speaking of 25 weeks, 4 days, we are up by 38 lbs (as of last week) and seem to be hungry alot! I keep saying the babies must be growing, but I think it is just my excuse to eat! I have been eating really badly lately... wish I could control it.

The girls are starting to get really excited... and things are changing.. we got new living room furniture this week, and D is still suffering from moving it in! I felt completely helpless as I stood by and let him and the neighbors haul the huge couch in.. I used to be able to help!

We have one crib put together, and just got an offer of another crib yesterday, so that makes me happy! We dont have to buy another crib.

My friend Jenn has been spilling the beans about the shower on April 10 for a couple of weeks, but she did not know I knew when the actual shower was... um, hello.. D tells me pretty much everything! I just don't know the time now.

I am hooked on focus groups. In fact, I am leaving work early today to join in one and make a cool $100. That will buy the toilet for the new bathroom that (hopefully) better be done by the time the babies are here.

I am beginning to freak about money and construction. We have been talking about putting a room and bathroom in teh basement since we found out we were pregnant, and we are now 12 weekends MAX away from having babies and still no construction.

We did find out that we will have to outsource the construction to make code and get the appropriate permits, and have gotten several quotes from a contractor, so hopefully we will be able to start construction soon after I start working from home.

Oh, and YEAH.. only 2.5 more weeks until I start working from home. This has the potential of making me go stir crazy with noone to talk to, but my body will be grateful!
By the end of the day and workweek, my body is just exhausted!

The babies are moving alot more now... especially Jake. Last night when I was trying to get to sleep, little Annabelle decided to show her strength and kicked and rolled for a while. I had to put D's hand on my belly and announce it was finally HER!

We go back to the dr next week, Allison's birthday, for the next growth scan. I cant wait to see how big they have gotten!

And wow... I cant believe Allison will be 11 next week. We had her take some invitations to school today, she was allowed to invite 5 friends, and we will take them bowling, then home for cake and ice cream. I just can't believe how big she is getting.

We are past 24 weeks!!!

Actually, we are 25 weeks today.

To say I am grateful is an understatement. I know I seem to always be grumpy or griping, but I am so grateful for these babies.

We went to the dr Tuesday (24.5 weeks).... everything looks great, cervix is closed, the babies look good (although we only saw them for a few minutes) and my weight is not toooo terribly bad.

The good news is today marks 3 more weeks until I can start working from home.

I am really going to miss the interaction, but will love not having to drag myself to the car for the hour plus commute. The babies seem to be getting big, and love to listen to music (Frank Sinatra and Harry Connick Jr seem to be their faves right now).

Today they seem to be sleeping alot, which worried me at first, but I am assured by others they are probably just having a lazy day.

We went to Kelsey's concert Tuesday night and I was amazed at how great her band sounded. I will add pics later.

The girls are really growing up. Allison will be 11 in 2 weeks... holy cow that makes me feel old.

We got Allison's bed taken down last weekend and got one of the cribs up. The girls flipped a coin to see which crib set we would put on and Annabelle's won! So we now have her crib all set up.

This weekend is Easter. I understand the importance of this holiday and wish we were more actively involved in a church. I wish we could find one that we all liked.
Sometimes I think how badly I want to bring the babies up in a good church, but with my past experience and Dan not knowing the Baptist religion, I wonder how we will work that.

I know that we will show the babies God's love.

I am really grateful.

They will be here before we know it. I cant wait to hold them!

GRRRR

long time no post... but things are hectic and I am feeling like a big whale! Almost 24 weeks, I cant believe it.
The babies are getting big, at last drs appointment two weeks ago, Jake was 1 lb 7 oz and Annabelle was 1 lb 4 oz. He is still measuring big, but that is what we want.

In the meantime, while they are cooking, I am feeling miserable. I am finding it hard to walk more than 5 minutes without losing my breath and my feet swelling like sausages. My fingers are swollen, my face is really really puffy and my nose is bulbous.

I can not get into a comfortable position no matter what I do. And I think I am getting carpal tunnel.

Also, NO work has been done on the room or bathroom downstairs and I am freaking out! I am so aggravated because this has not been started and I feel the need to get things set up. I feel completely unprepared. And I dont think that anyone understands.

I am in serious panic mode, as I have no clue how we will afford daycare. I really dont know what we are gonna do. I also dont want to leave my babies all day.

I am really grumpy!